Tuesday, December 31, 2013
So there's a lot going on for my family possibly in the new year some of which I'm not sure it's going to happen so I can't really talk about a lot of it. One thing I can tell you about now is a new job for me! I'll still be in contracts but a different type of contract. Still with the government but a different group... and HOLLA Momma got a raise! But I want to go beyond the obvious changes. Yes I made that change and it's a needed one, but there's deeper changes that need to happen so that when these kind of changes don't happen, it's okay. I need to know that I will be okay.
Now is the time many start talking about new years resolutions. I mean we all have thoughts of "what I'll do" right? We all have thoughts of what we want to do better. Here's what's been weighing heavily on my heart lately... because I really think a change has to start there if you're going to have any chance of it starting anywhere else.
I will lose at least 25lbs this year. I feel like not reaching this goal in the past has really hurt me in other areas of my life. I feel like I'm letting myself down and so then I allow (key word allow) myself to be let down in other areas of my life too. I can go through the million and one ways that I'm going to do it, but I don't honestly know and you know what? It could be a million different ways, I don't care as long as it happens!
I will cut out on buying extra crap just to buy. I'm not saying that my family won't buy something random for the house or I won't purchase an extra shirt here or there to feel pretty for something important. But I'm going to be smart about the purchases and I'm not going to be emotional. I will not go shopping because I want to cover feelings of hurt or anger. Instead I'll try to put those feelings into those previously mentioned 25lbs.
I will spend my time more wisely. I'm done filling up our calendar with get togethers with people I feel like we should get together with. Instead I'm going to concentrate on people that I need to get together with for the sake of my happiness. Luckily God has blessed us with A LOT of amazing friends, but I want to work on seeing the amazing friends that I have been taking for granted. I also want to set aside time for just my family. My goal is to only plan one "outside of the family" activity a weekend. Sometimes this won't happen (birthday parties, etc), but my goal will be that if we had a busy Saturday then we need to take it east Sunday and visa versa.
I will get my family more involved with our church. Sunday morning service alone isn't doing a service to anyone. We need to up our game to some Sunday School action and other family activities to really bring God to the root of our family and to show my children what it all really means when we pray every night.
I will blog more. This is my diary, scrapbook, sounding board all in one. I can keep my children's memories and let my feelings out on here. I've been slack this past year because I've been slack in general. I've been spending too many days in a whoa is me mode. I've been praying too many prayers asking God to fix it rather then asking him to fix me. I've been looking at what I don't have more than what I do have. Often when I get to sound it out on here, I realize my err and snap out of it. I will Blog more.
So what are you planning for 2014?
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
Somehow my sweet first born is 4! Today is her birthday and it's actually hitting me hard. Normally I spend so much time on celebrating birthdays that I don't have time for it to emotionally hit me... but today, her birthday is in the middle of the week. Her party isn't until Saturday so I have all day to sit here and think about how my sweet baby girl is FOUR!
This past holiday weekend my family came up for Thanksgiving and since they couldn't be here for Kinsley's actual birthday they did a pre-birthday celebration with her. It was awesome, she walked around all day telling us it was her pretend birthday and she could do what she wants!
Mom took her to ICE! I don't think she really got how amazing it was, that EVERYTHING was made out of ice, but she enjoyed it and we were VERY impressed!
A little pre-gaming on the train!~
These are backwards for some reason but whateve, enter: ICE
Here's the life-size nativity scene!
Then this morning I had this all set up for her to take up to:
I think it went over well!
And now my baby is four. This weekend we're having a huge Ariel Under the Sea blowout for her, I still can't believe in a year and half she'll be in Kindergarten!
I love you sweet Kinsley Grace. For all that you are and all that you will be! You are such a sweet and caring little girl. You're thoughtful of your friends and family. You never forget anything and are amazing at learning everything. God has blessed our lives by letting you into it, Thank you for sharing your sweetness with us!