...Had a moment where you realized you were single handedly killing your family? I just had one.
The hubs asked me to work on the budget because I'm a boss when it comes to figuring out where our money is going and where it should be going, etc.
Guess what... It's all going to stuff that I can control but I'm not. I feel like a selfish spending whore.
Here's my biggest problem. I have an addiction to instant gratification. This is why I'm fat, this is why I spend too much.
It takes time to see the accumulation of saving money... it takes time to see the results of eating right and working out. But you know what? That pair of shoes looks great on me NOW and my face hole loves that donut here and now and BOY did that nap feel a LOT better than working out! I'm telling ya!
But I'm killing my family. I'm taking away from our future hopes and dreams and I'm ruining my husbands morale.
We will never be able to move, even if the market turns around with my spending. We will never be able to go on vacations, we will never be able to do fun things with the kids. This is all stuff the hubs keeps telling me but I don't really hear him. I shut down and click Pay Now while I eat ice cream when he's talking to me... I'm a horrible wife!
I did a pie chart (it's wicked pretty) and a tracker sheet with our budget. Do you know we spent over $1000 at the GROCERY store?!?!? That doesn't even include other foods that we bought at Wal-mart or Target or the food my mother-in-law regularly stocks our shelves with. WTH!?!?! WHO DOES THAT!?!? That's a lot of food!
I spent $550 on things for myself last month! I did need some new clothes (nursing bras were falling apart and clothes are wonky) but I did NOT need all the cheap jewelry or books or lattes, etc.
Dinning out? over $390... Um who needs to eat out that much when we are spending over a grand at the grocery store?!?!?
I'm an emotional spender/eater. I spend and/or eat when I'm tired, depressed, run down, you name it. It makes me feel momentarily happy. It's my drug of choice.
I need a spending cold shower and FAST. It's no joke people and it's got to start now!
Any help would be awesome!