The power of the backwards C is the key to helping your baby poop/fart. One day Chris and i were watching a show called Doctors and they came on with a great tip. If your baby seems gassy and can't seem to make things move along rub their stomach in a backwards C. This is the way the intestines flow and you'll help them flow.
So since my child is VERY gassy and it keeps her from taking any decent naps during the day i try the power of the C.... sadly this doesn't help her to nap longer but man the stuff it helps her push out!
Kinsley also enjoys the power of the C... it often calms her since it help rids her of her projectile poop!
So if your baby seems to be gassy and fussy... try the power of the C, it may not help her to take a better/longer nap... BUT it will help her pitiful little tummy.
Monday, December 28, 2009
You're not a parent until poop is involved...
Well you all know how Kinsley likes to try to surprise us with her pee... well she's figured it out with her poop hole too...
Breastfed poop is very liquidy... not sure about formula but man with this boob fed child when she poops you know because you hear it for miles! Tonight we thought she might have blown her butt cheeks apart it was so powerful... it's projectile poop that gets caught by the all mighty pampers!
Well when you think she's done and you wait and wait and wait... well Kinsley is waiting too... waiting to take aim. The other morning i was changing her diaper in bed when she started pooping again and i caught it before it made a big mess... i had to get ANOTHER diaper but that's cool... so i arm myself with her now second new diaper and right as i'm pulling and switching WAM! she projectile poops ALL OVER my abdomen. I mean I think i saw her try to lift her butt to try to aim higher! So here i am covered in poop while my dear darlin husband is snoring soundly next to me... until i woke him with my shocked screams!
So now i'm officially a parent... christened by the poop!
Breastfed poop is very liquidy... not sure about formula but man with this boob fed child when she poops you know because you hear it for miles! Tonight we thought she might have blown her butt cheeks apart it was so powerful... it's projectile poop that gets caught by the all mighty pampers!
Well when you think she's done and you wait and wait and wait... well Kinsley is waiting too... waiting to take aim. The other morning i was changing her diaper in bed when she started pooping again and i caught it before it made a big mess... i had to get ANOTHER diaper but that's cool... so i arm myself with her now second new diaper and right as i'm pulling and switching WAM! she projectile poops ALL OVER my abdomen. I mean I think i saw her try to lift her butt to try to aim higher! So here i am covered in poop while my dear darlin husband is snoring soundly next to me... until i woke him with my shocked screams!
So now i'm officially a parent... christened by the poop!
Merry Christmas K!
Kinsley had a great Christmas... full of family and gifts! Here's a few photos to see how her day went.
She started her Christmas Eve with her first bottle. She loved it and had no problem going back to the boob.... lately it seems the only time she isn't fussy is when she's on the boob... yet she falls asleep on it (no matter how hard i try to keep her awake) and then wakes up when i try to do something and is fussy... but i can't feed her again for 2 hours from when she started feeding the first time so it's a count down until she's not fussy again... we think she's gassy, so we use gas drops... she's still fussy though... oh well... on to the photos.
Here's a few of her funny faces in her Christmas PJ's.
She loves the playmat that Santa brought her!
She started her Christmas Eve with her first bottle. She loved it and had no problem going back to the boob.... lately it seems the only time she isn't fussy is when she's on the boob... yet she falls asleep on it (no matter how hard i try to keep her awake) and then wakes up when i try to do something and is fussy... but i can't feed her again for 2 hours from when she started feeding the first time so it's a count down until she's not fussy again... we think she's gassy, so we use gas drops... she's still fussy though... oh well... on to the photos.
Here's a few of her funny faces in her Christmas PJ's.
She loves the playmat that Santa brought her!
Thursday, December 24, 2009
She's a true Diva!
So i always joked that Kinsley was a Diva when she was inside me... well i don't think that's changed. She's been a bit fussy lately (normally that only happens at night) and so today when she was fussy i took her upstairs. I changed her clothes and then fed her. Well after i fed her she started pooping... i was VERY excited about this (yes you will get very excited about poop when you become a parent! you will pray for poop and celebrate poop).... so when she started pooping and kept going i was cheering her on (thinking this would help her feel better)... well it did... it felt good to her all the way up her back. Yep that's right, our frist blow out... i mean it practically went up to her neck! And right after i put new clothes on her! lol... oh well... so we threw her in the tub, washed her down, put another set of clothes on her and then i fed her AGAIN to calm and sooth her... then my little Diva was content... or at least i think so... see for yourself.
Monday, December 21, 2009
SANTA!!!
So we did it... we saw Santa! Well Kinsley didn't SEE him but she was held by him! More on that later when i can use both hands to type... but here's the cutie!
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Pacifier from the Gods!
So one of my good friends from church gave me a pacifier for a baby gift (among other things) but let me tell you... i don't recall off the top of my head what those other things were, i just remember she gave me THIS pacifier. When we got home from the hospital i started trying paci after paci and Kinsley (my little Deva) rejected them all... finally i took THIS paci out of the wrapper and stuck it in and WHA LA! She was sold and so was I! This pacifier is given in VERY FEW hospitals so it must be ordered online... i tried to buy some "soothie look alikes" and she KNEW right away this was not HER Deva paci... so i am now ordering more in fear that we will loose our one. What is this little piece of magical silicone? It's the Gumdrop Pacifier!
To get yours just go to gumdroppacifier.com. They are cheap and WORTH IT!
To get yours just go to gumdroppacifier.com. They are cheap and WORTH IT!
Snow!
First i want to thank everyone for the comments and tips! It's VERY much appreciated! We actually, randomly, had some success last night... she slept in her bassinet from 9ish until 12ish, woke up and ate, then slept in it again from then until 3ish... thene woke up and ate... and then she was done sleeping in it... but that was like 6 hours of sleeping on her own!!! WOW!!!! I was pretty excited!
Well it seems that my little bit is a snow baby! It snowed the day after she was born and it is coming down again... we have over a foot of snow right now and it's going to keep coming all day! So i think K brought the snow in with her! We are even predicted to get more later in the week so we'll have a white Christmas! YEA! But don't worry... i wouldn't tell you all about this without showing you some pictures of my snow bunny!
Oh and don't worry, we're not bad parents, she was out there for 1 minute tops... snap and photo and back into grandma's warm arms inside!
I know you're LOVING the camo pants i had to borrow fromm Chris, i don't have any snow pants... oh well.
So here's an update on K's two week appointment. She now weights 8lbs and 7oz! What a cute little chunker! And she's 21 and a quarter inches now! She sure is growing!
Here she is throwing some gang signs!
Here's a few of the sleeping angel
I am doing well too.. i'm pretty much healed and getting around just fine... the boobs on the other hand are still a work in progress but you can't win the all and i'm still sticking it out since Kinsley is growing so well! I've also lost 25lbs, only 10 left to get to my starting weight. I've joined weight watchers online to help with that (haven't officially started it yet but i plan on it very soon!) and my brother gave us a Wii for Christmas so i'm going to get the Wii Fit to help with toning, etc once i can workout again!
Well hope all of ya'll are doing well, i'm going to get back to my kissy face baby... here's one of her funny kissy faces she makes.... the lighting isn't great but you can still make out her lips!
Well it seems that my little bit is a snow baby! It snowed the day after she was born and it is coming down again... we have over a foot of snow right now and it's going to keep coming all day! So i think K brought the snow in with her! We are even predicted to get more later in the week so we'll have a white Christmas! YEA! But don't worry... i wouldn't tell you all about this without showing you some pictures of my snow bunny!
Oh and don't worry, we're not bad parents, she was out there for 1 minute tops... snap and photo and back into grandma's warm arms inside!
I know you're LOVING the camo pants i had to borrow fromm Chris, i don't have any snow pants... oh well.
So here's an update on K's two week appointment. She now weights 8lbs and 7oz! What a cute little chunker! And she's 21 and a quarter inches now! She sure is growing!
Here she is throwing some gang signs!
Here's a few of the sleeping angel
I am doing well too.. i'm pretty much healed and getting around just fine... the boobs on the other hand are still a work in progress but you can't win the all and i'm still sticking it out since Kinsley is growing so well! I've also lost 25lbs, only 10 left to get to my starting weight. I've joined weight watchers online to help with that (haven't officially started it yet but i plan on it very soon!) and my brother gave us a Wii for Christmas so i'm going to get the Wii Fit to help with toning, etc once i can workout again!
Well hope all of ya'll are doing well, i'm going to get back to my kissy face baby... here's one of her funny kissy faces she makes.... the lighting isn't great but you can still make out her lips!
Thursday, December 17, 2009
i'll update more
tomorrow... lol... i'm just tired today... but i'll put in pictures! Tomorrow is K's 2 week appointment! Can you believe it?!?! i can't! i know that we're going to get yelled at though b/c K still isn't sleeping in her bassinet... she will for like 30mins and then she wants to be with us... i can't get her to be happy unless she's on me! Even during the day i put her in her swing, boucer, etc and she's happy until she wakes up! UH! Oh and forget swaddling... she's not down with that! And the pediatrician that we're going to see tomorrow is the queen of swaddling so i know she's going to yell at me... uh i just don't know what to do... it's let her sleep on me or no one gets any sleep...tips?
Monday, December 14, 2009
Baby Face
I'll tell you one thing the best thing in the world to watch is your baby's face. They don't have a clue what they are doing but it's always so cute! In their sleep they like to smile, laugh, throw in an elvis lip... it just never gets old. Throw in some crazy stretching and your heart will not be your own anymore watching all of this cuteness! (don't worry i'll try to capture pictures... she's just so fast).
Today Chris went back to work... my baby's face wasn't a happy one with this thought... but every time i spoke to him on the phone she would smile at me... i think she knew. (i KNOW smiles at this age are gas but maybe her gas knew!).
So if you're ever having a bad day, go and find a new born baby and watch her sleep... it will make even the meanest person smile!
Today Chris went back to work... my baby's face wasn't a happy one with this thought... but every time i spoke to him on the phone she would smile at me... i think she knew. (i KNOW smiles at this age are gas but maybe her gas knew!).
So if you're ever having a bad day, go and find a new born baby and watch her sleep... it will make even the meanest person smile!
Birth Story
WEll it sort of started on Wednesday. I was having contractions and went to the doctor after work. They were 8 mins apart and i was 3cm dilated and fully effaced... but that didn't matter because the contractions weren't close enough. So the next day i went to work and started walking with my friend Tina in hopes of starting them again and getting them closer... but the problem was they weren't coming back. I was so bummed. I really thought i had a chance.... So at the end of the day i stood up to get ready to go home and then trickle trickle trickle.... hmm i thought to myself i know i didn't pee myself because, well, i've done THAT before. So i went to the restroom to check things out and i was wet, so i drained my bladder and got my stuff and started to leave. Then *trickle trickle trickle*... so i called Chris and told him i thought my water was breaking... he suggested a call to the doctor. I thought this sounded smart, by the time i got to my car and got a nurse on the phone i was getting little gushes. They told me to go to the hospital so i went on my way. So i drove myself there and Chris left work to meet me.
I got to labor and delivery and my entire pants from crotch to foot were wet... so what did they make me do??? Stand there for 20mins. Oh wait! i'm sorry they did offer to let me SIT in my own fluid... SO NICE! FINALLY they took me back and let me get changed and into bed... where i kept leaking but what can you do about that. Chris got there shortly after that and the wait was on.
A while later around 5cm or so i opted for a shot in my butt to help with the contractions... walking and other techniques were not making me feel better. Well the butt shot didn't help a TON... a little yes but not a ton... so about 30mins to an hour later i opted for the good stuff... bring on the epidural! OH YEA!
Getting the epi was worth it but not easy. Trying to bend over a huge belly that has not allowed you to bend in 2 months while it's sending shooting pain through your body and being told to not move while you get stuck with needles... yeah not easy. Once it was in... SO worth it! Well, until it started to wear off... yeah i had it start to wear off in 2 places... front right and back right of my body... and it was PAINFUL! But, i had to wait for the anastiologist to come out of the OR for more drugs... one hour of waiting... this is hard when you're 7cm dilated and the contractions are coming every 2 mins... not fun... but when he did get there... FUN!
So lets skip ahead to the nurse FINALLY telling me that i'm 9 1/2 cm but have a "lip" to get out of the way... so she's going to put me on my side for 20 mins then the other side for 20 mins and that should do it... yeah but after being on one side for 10 mins i wanted to push! Chris was trying to tell me to wait that the nurse would be back in 10 mins but i kept telling (okay yelling) him to go and get her. It felt like i needed to take the biggest poop in my life and was told... "hold it for a few hours". YEAH RIGHT! So in comes the nurse, up go my legs and on to the pushing!
For those who don't know they do pushing in rounds with your contractions. You'll push 3-4 times in each round while the nurse counts to 10. And let me tell you that count to 10 gets longer and longer each time! The first two rounds were good b/c i needed to push so badly... the rest were "special". i was getting pretty tired... it gets hard to breath too and you start to feel like you can't keep going. Chris and the nurse kept saying stuff like "I see her hair" "I see this much of her head" ... so i responded with "THAT'S NOT ENOUGH HEAD!" "THERE'S STILL MORE TO COME!" "JUST PULL HER OUT!". They told me they couldn't "pull her out" just like that... so then they started holding my legs up all the time rather than letting them down between rounds... this did NOT make me happy. I kept telling them to put my legs down and they said if they did then she would be sucked back up in the birth canal. GREAT!
Well after 45 mins of pushing she came out with a big gush of fluid. As the doctor was turning her to get her shoulders out she noticed that the cord was around her neck so she started pulling as i was pushing. Kinsley came out at 3:31am... the doctor unwrapped her, let Chris cut the cord, laid her on my chest and they started to clean her. She wasn't crying so they took her to the warmer and gave her oxygen and had a neo-natal nurse look at her. She was doing fine, just didn't want to cry... they had to tube her stomach too since some of the oxygen went into it and bloated it.
After what seemed like forever, but was only maybe 15 mins, they gave her to Chris while the doctor finished with me. I had a smaller than a one degree tear but my placenta did not want to come out... BUT finally after lots of tugging and massaging (which by the way is painful) it released itself.
SO now my baby girl and i could be reunited, where she latched onto my boob immediately! lol.
Kinsley Grace was 8lbs and 21 inches long. Her head was 13inches around and perfect in every way!
I got to labor and delivery and my entire pants from crotch to foot were wet... so what did they make me do??? Stand there for 20mins. Oh wait! i'm sorry they did offer to let me SIT in my own fluid... SO NICE! FINALLY they took me back and let me get changed and into bed... where i kept leaking but what can you do about that. Chris got there shortly after that and the wait was on.
A while later around 5cm or so i opted for a shot in my butt to help with the contractions... walking and other techniques were not making me feel better. Well the butt shot didn't help a TON... a little yes but not a ton... so about 30mins to an hour later i opted for the good stuff... bring on the epidural! OH YEA!
Getting the epi was worth it but not easy. Trying to bend over a huge belly that has not allowed you to bend in 2 months while it's sending shooting pain through your body and being told to not move while you get stuck with needles... yeah not easy. Once it was in... SO worth it! Well, until it started to wear off... yeah i had it start to wear off in 2 places... front right and back right of my body... and it was PAINFUL! But, i had to wait for the anastiologist to come out of the OR for more drugs... one hour of waiting... this is hard when you're 7cm dilated and the contractions are coming every 2 mins... not fun... but when he did get there... FUN!
So lets skip ahead to the nurse FINALLY telling me that i'm 9 1/2 cm but have a "lip" to get out of the way... so she's going to put me on my side for 20 mins then the other side for 20 mins and that should do it... yeah but after being on one side for 10 mins i wanted to push! Chris was trying to tell me to wait that the nurse would be back in 10 mins but i kept telling (okay yelling) him to go and get her. It felt like i needed to take the biggest poop in my life and was told... "hold it for a few hours". YEAH RIGHT! So in comes the nurse, up go my legs and on to the pushing!
For those who don't know they do pushing in rounds with your contractions. You'll push 3-4 times in each round while the nurse counts to 10. And let me tell you that count to 10 gets longer and longer each time! The first two rounds were good b/c i needed to push so badly... the rest were "special". i was getting pretty tired... it gets hard to breath too and you start to feel like you can't keep going. Chris and the nurse kept saying stuff like "I see her hair" "I see this much of her head" ... so i responded with "THAT'S NOT ENOUGH HEAD!" "THERE'S STILL MORE TO COME!" "JUST PULL HER OUT!". They told me they couldn't "pull her out" just like that... so then they started holding my legs up all the time rather than letting them down between rounds... this did NOT make me happy. I kept telling them to put my legs down and they said if they did then she would be sucked back up in the birth canal. GREAT!
Well after 45 mins of pushing she came out with a big gush of fluid. As the doctor was turning her to get her shoulders out she noticed that the cord was around her neck so she started pulling as i was pushing. Kinsley came out at 3:31am... the doctor unwrapped her, let Chris cut the cord, laid her on my chest and they started to clean her. She wasn't crying so they took her to the warmer and gave her oxygen and had a neo-natal nurse look at her. She was doing fine, just didn't want to cry... they had to tube her stomach too since some of the oxygen went into it and bloated it.
After what seemed like forever, but was only maybe 15 mins, they gave her to Chris while the doctor finished with me. I had a smaller than a one degree tear but my placenta did not want to come out... BUT finally after lots of tugging and massaging (which by the way is painful) it released itself.
SO now my baby girl and i could be reunited, where she latched onto my boob immediately! lol.
Kinsley Grace was 8lbs and 21 inches long. Her head was 13inches around and perfect in every way!
Saturday, December 12, 2009
She's just so cute... even when my nipples bleed
I'm working on the birth story but we've been having breast feeding issues.... well I've been having issues.... Kinsley is going GREAT! I have extremely sore and cracked nipples... i wouldn't wish this pain on anyone. The other night Chris had to visit like 5 stores to get me shields... they work... but i'm still not really healing... i've looked for tips on how to heal them so we're working that... but i refuse to give up! My baby loves my boobie milk and i won't take it from her. I'll update you more on this... but for now here's the pics we're using on the Christmas card!
Alright well my little piranha needs a diaper change and then that normally means it's time to eat. Off to see the cuteness!
Alright well my little piranha needs a diaper change and then that normally means it's time to eat. Off to see the cuteness!
Monday, December 7, 2009
More pics
Saturday, December 5, 2009
Guess Who's Here!!!!
Chris and my beautiful daughter came into the world yesterday December 4th at 3:31 in the morning. After having my water break right as i was leaving work and push finally for 45mins we were able to hold her! She was born at 8 lbs exactly and 21 inches. I'll bore you with all the details of everything later but i'll give you what you want for now... PICTURES!!!!
This is what i looked like after we finally got moved into our room... i don't even care! i have my baby!
Proud Daddy!
look at all that hair! you know i had to put a bow in it!
Kinsley sends some elvis love to ya'll!
And PS. We just got back from our breastfeeding class... yeah, Kinsley was the best and got a gold star! She's my little super star!
This is what i looked like after we finally got moved into our room... i don't even care! i have my baby!
Kinsley sends some elvis love to ya'll!
And PS. We just got back from our breastfeeding class... yeah, Kinsley was the best and got a gold star! She's my little super star!
Thursday, December 3, 2009
GUESS WHAT?!?!?
Well yesterday i noticed some contractions and was wondering what the deal was so my nurse told me to come in and get monitored and checked out. I go in and i'm being monitored for like 2 hours (yeah i think they forgot about me) and i was having contractions 8 mins apart... same as Monday except i REALLY felt these.
So then Dr. Doom comes in, and you know what? He has lost the name Dr. Doom... i like him now! I'm a full 3cm and fully effaced! He was like "you CAN go to the hospital but i might wait until the contractions are more like 5-6 mins apart." So home i went.
They kept up until i went to sleep and then faded off. When i would get up to pee i would feel one and that was about it. Then i woke up at 2/2:30 and couldn't sleep so i went down stairs to read my book and that was it.
Today i will walk again in hopes of getting them going strong again and hopefully be rewarded with a trip to the hospital!
We'll see!
So then Dr. Doom comes in, and you know what? He has lost the name Dr. Doom... i like him now! I'm a full 3cm and fully effaced! He was like "you CAN go to the hospital but i might wait until the contractions are more like 5-6 mins apart." So home i went.
They kept up until i went to sleep and then faded off. When i would get up to pee i would feel one and that was about it. Then i woke up at 2/2:30 and couldn't sleep so i went down stairs to read my book and that was it.
Today i will walk again in hopes of getting them going strong again and hopefully be rewarded with a trip to the hospital!
We'll see!
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Contractions are a tease!
So yesterday i was feeling them! Especially on the way home and once i got home. Last night Chris and i were cleaning and putting away laundry and they just kept on coming! I was telling Chris "okay get the lab top, lets start timing them!" So i sit down on the bed and wait for the next one to hit the start button and... NOTHING!
I mean i still had contractions but they were so far apart it was pointless to track them. UH! I was almost convinced that i was going to the hospital last night! Oh well on to another day~
I mean i still had contractions but they were so far apart it was pointless to track them. UH! I was almost convinced that i was going to the hospital last night! Oh well on to another day~
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Dear Kinsley, We're 39 weeks!
Dear Baby girl,
Well we've made it to 39 weeks. You are now a BIG healthy girl! Mommy got to see you yesterday and you waved at me! It was so cute to watch your little hand open and close and think that soon i will be seeing it in person!
Soon i'll be holding you, wiping your little butt, and putting big huge bows in your hair! I dream about the first time i get to see your little face and i dream about the doctors placing your in your daddy's arms!
Baby girl, this has been a long time coming and your Daddy and I couldn't be more excited to meet you! We love you so much already, i can't even put it into words. So do your thing and come on out, there's lots of people that can't wait to meet you!
Here's our picture, hopefully the next one of "us" will be with you in my arms!
Love you baby girl! See you soon!
Mommy!
Well we've made it to 39 weeks. You are now a BIG healthy girl! Mommy got to see you yesterday and you waved at me! It was so cute to watch your little hand open and close and think that soon i will be seeing it in person!
Soon i'll be holding you, wiping your little butt, and putting big huge bows in your hair! I dream about the first time i get to see your little face and i dream about the doctors placing your in your daddy's arms!
Baby girl, this has been a long time coming and your Daddy and I couldn't be more excited to meet you! We love you so much already, i can't even put it into words. So do your thing and come on out, there's lots of people that can't wait to meet you!
Here's our picture, hopefully the next one of "us" will be with you in my arms!
Love you baby girl! See you soon!
Mommy!
Not quite sure how to write this...
So i have come to the understanding that this blog is basically a bitchfest-2000 type blog. Where i complain and complain and complain about pregnancy. So i'm going to take a minute to first explain myself and then tell you what is good about pregnancy.
I started this blog to 1. capture all the ins and outs of this process and preserve them. and 2. to inform others that have not been pregnant about the side of pregnancy people don't talk about so that if you're experiencing these problems you know you're not some sort of freak.
With that being said, often my post come across as me complaining and has left people baffled why i'm so miserable if i wanted this so badly.
Now i will address these concerns. I have ALWAYS wanted to be a mommy. As long as i can remember back that has been one of my biggest dreams. And once i finally met the man of my dreams then my Mommy dream became obsessive. Once we got married and i widdled down his defenses and got him on the baby train it was all i could do to contain myself. I wanted to be pregnant and have a cute bump and feel baby kick. The thing is... nothing is EVER how you dream it.
Getting pregnant was and still is magical. The thought that you have a life inside of you is BEYOND amazing. Feeling the kicks and flutters is so touching and emotional that i can't even put into words how special it is. Seeing your baby on a ultra-sound (i don't care if you have 2 or 10) is a gift from God each time.
BUT no matter how magical it all is you are never ready for the not so sparkly side of pregnancy. You think yeah i might have morning sickness, yeah i'll bet some swelling will come, i've heard that my boobs might hurt and constipation might become an issue. But you're not ever prepared for everything, like baby moving your tail bone, the return of a polynatal cyst, rashes you've never heard about, just how ugly stretch marks REALLY are, and just how hard bending over or getting up will be.
If you want a child bad enough you kind of block out these "warnings" from other mothers because you think this Pregnancy will be a breeze for me! And honestly, compared to many other women it has been a breeze for me... but i don't care who you are, the last month is never a breeze for anyone and if you say it was for you, then you're lying.
No matter how badly you want a child, it' doesn't make it easier when you are waking up every hour of the night. It's not any easier to walk when your entire pelvic region is in pain and you get lighting crotch with every step you take. That sometimes your belly is so sensitive that the slightest brush up against something makes you gasp in pain.
Despite all of these "complaints", do you want this child any less? No. Does it make it any less of a miracle? NO. Would you do it again and again? Yes. BUT these are the facts, no matter how magical and amazing pregnancy is, it's still gross and uncomfortable.
So now that i feel i've explained myself i'm going to list the parts of pregnancy that are truly amazing to me....
feeling Kinsley move
seeing her on a sonogram
having Chris touch my belly
sharing moments with my mom
planning and decorating for her
praying for her health every night
Seeing my belly take shape as she grows
Watching my belly have a dance party after meals
Knowing that i will be holding her in my arms
Knowing that God has blessed me with the greatest gift of all
Pregnancy itself is not all it's cracked up to be, it's messy, hard, uncomfortable, but SOOO worth it. No matter what i've complained about i would do it again and again just for this little girl! But it's still nice to be able to get it out and have other women relate!
I started this blog to 1. capture all the ins and outs of this process and preserve them. and 2. to inform others that have not been pregnant about the side of pregnancy people don't talk about so that if you're experiencing these problems you know you're not some sort of freak.
With that being said, often my post come across as me complaining and has left people baffled why i'm so miserable if i wanted this so badly.
Now i will address these concerns. I have ALWAYS wanted to be a mommy. As long as i can remember back that has been one of my biggest dreams. And once i finally met the man of my dreams then my Mommy dream became obsessive. Once we got married and i widdled down his defenses and got him on the baby train it was all i could do to contain myself. I wanted to be pregnant and have a cute bump and feel baby kick. The thing is... nothing is EVER how you dream it.
Getting pregnant was and still is magical. The thought that you have a life inside of you is BEYOND amazing. Feeling the kicks and flutters is so touching and emotional that i can't even put into words how special it is. Seeing your baby on a ultra-sound (i don't care if you have 2 or 10) is a gift from God each time.
BUT no matter how magical it all is you are never ready for the not so sparkly side of pregnancy. You think yeah i might have morning sickness, yeah i'll bet some swelling will come, i've heard that my boobs might hurt and constipation might become an issue. But you're not ever prepared for everything, like baby moving your tail bone, the return of a polynatal cyst, rashes you've never heard about, just how ugly stretch marks REALLY are, and just how hard bending over or getting up will be.
If you want a child bad enough you kind of block out these "warnings" from other mothers because you think this Pregnancy will be a breeze for me! And honestly, compared to many other women it has been a breeze for me... but i don't care who you are, the last month is never a breeze for anyone and if you say it was for you, then you're lying.
No matter how badly you want a child, it' doesn't make it easier when you are waking up every hour of the night. It's not any easier to walk when your entire pelvic region is in pain and you get lighting crotch with every step you take. That sometimes your belly is so sensitive that the slightest brush up against something makes you gasp in pain.
Despite all of these "complaints", do you want this child any less? No. Does it make it any less of a miracle? NO. Would you do it again and again? Yes. BUT these are the facts, no matter how magical and amazing pregnancy is, it's still gross and uncomfortable.
So now that i feel i've explained myself i'm going to list the parts of pregnancy that are truly amazing to me....
feeling Kinsley move
seeing her on a sonogram
having Chris touch my belly
sharing moments with my mom
planning and decorating for her
praying for her health every night
Seeing my belly take shape as she grows
Watching my belly have a dance party after meals
Knowing that i will be holding her in my arms
Knowing that God has blessed me with the greatest gift of all
Pregnancy itself is not all it's cracked up to be, it's messy, hard, uncomfortable, but SOOO worth it. No matter what i've complained about i would do it again and again just for this little girl! But it's still nice to be able to get it out and have other women relate!
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