I wish i could say that i have one song that just "does it" for me, but i don't. There are meaningful songs in my life: "When I Say I Do" was my first dance at my wedding. "California Girls" is the song my daddy would always put in the tape player on the way to the doctor when i wasn't feel good to lift my spirits. "You are my Sunshine" reminds me of my brother and momma. "Itsy Bitsy Spider" and "ABCs" will always be dear to my heart for my daughter.
But that ONE song that means a lot to me? There just isn't ONE. One that describes what i hope to be? That's different, i'm not sure what exactly that would be... but it would be about a good mother, a good wife, and a christian example for my daughter.
Have you ever had one of those eye opening experiences that is like a huge slap in the face? Well i got slapped, HARD by God this weekend. Through events of the weekend, my devotional that i started doing, and looking at my daughters face... i had quite the eye opener. I'm not going to talk about it on here because there's too many people that are close to my family that read this blog. If it were all perfect strangers i would share away (i can take strangers judgement, just not family/friend disappointment). I might share on here eventually, once i've figured it out and am peace... but i think God has a lot more slapping to do with me before i'm at peace. So if you're the praying type (and MAN i hope you are) keep praying because i'm stubborn but i can feel i need to release this to him, it's just REALLY hard.